Dear Journal,

It happened again. I thought I was rid of it, but it happened again. That same nightmare I had! You know, it's funny how you can get what you wanted and lead the life that you wanted but still have the past haunt you. This is what happened.

The nightmare took me back to that day when I was stripped of my talent and magic, watching helplessly as Twilight Sparkle battled Tirek. I couldn't move, couldn't help, only watch as her home, the source of knowledge and the place I first met her, was destroyed in the blink of an eye. Then suddenly, a blast from Tirek's power in an attempt to destroy the Alicorn hit my bookstore and house. There was a flash and then the world around me collapsed on top of me. Then I was in the darkness, calling out for help, but receiving none.

I know that I was saved from the wreckage that was my home, but... what if I wasn't discovered? What if I was left to suffer alone? I don't think the dream was about the events themselves as I have reconciled them in my mind. This is about my darkest fear, being completely and utterly alone where no friends of happy faces would help me. It's something I think about many times, being alone, and while it's nice to have time to myself to read or just think about the day I fear that I'd be thrown into a helpless and hopeless position where nopony would save me, not even myself.

Will I keep having these nightmares tied to my fear, or will I be able to conqueror it? Can something so deep be defeated?

Your Faithful Librarian,

Lore Weaver