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As you all may not know, I do try and keep myself happy, but sometimes it's hard. I've learned to practice smiling when i'm feeling sad, you know. I know it's embarrassing to say this myself, but my friends are like my ray of light, we help each other with our problems, no matter what they might be. But I used to be upset a lot, told anyone that said cheer up, "I don't think that's gonna help this time." I was a depressed mess, I stayed at home, never making any attempt at friendships. But ever since I joined the forums last year, it's been a wonderful feeling, one I'll never forget. Friends depend on each other, but sometimes it's better to find a solution yourself than always depending on others.

But now I see things in a better light, I always say to my friends when they are feeling sad, "Don't forget to smile!" it really works, I guess I have that knack for this sort of stuff. I tell myself that very same line, it reminds me that not everything is as bad as it sounds, that anyone can be a friend in need. I've had many people show me the things that make them happy, and that's what I want too. When I think about them, it just... oh what were those words again?... Oh! Now I remember, I said that everyone is special in their own right, and nobody can tell you different, it's their loss if they wish to mistreat you so badly, they're the ones missing out.

Also, I sometimes regress back into depression, and become less like my usual self. But I try to pick myself back up the best I can and move on, even if it feels hopeless. I can't put myself down every time I fail, that's not who I am. Who I am is a person who looks at the brighter things in life, and takes them and makes them my own positive thoughts, negative thoughts just hold me back, and keep me from doing anything good. I just hope you all understand how I feel.