If it hasn't become painfully obvious, ever since I ceased my work here as RPH I'v gradually lessened and lessened my involvement with the site as a whole, a lot has happened recently and I'm not quite sure where my standings in the fandom are anymore?

I'v started working, it's a temp job but it's eight hours monday through friday, and I'v been dealing with personal/relationship issues (which resulted in dating someone for 3 days then panicing and breaking it off due to not being ready) and general feelings of insecurity and inadequacy as a whole.

On Canterlot, I am very well aware of how I come across, I come off as a battle axe, willing to be a blunt force when necessary, I often seem imposing and to some down right unfriendly. This isn't true ofcourse, I'm very friendly! Most people who take the time to know me will quickly discover that I'm a very eager to please sort of friend.

I'm rather sad I have been finding myself falling out of love with Canterlot, since I don't play a big role here anymore on a staff level, but I want to rekindle my desire to roleplay and interact here and be here on a communal level, true most of my rp ideas still crash and burn because I used to overwhelm myself with rps and ideas, but now I sort of want to start up roleplays and characters and have all that creative fun without a crash!

The most common pms I get are about characters, so I'm thinking of starting a "Help Desk" of sorts for OC construction, I'v gotten the okay from the staff for this sort of thread and I think I'll be doing it =)

I also still have Rarity, as well as Fleur, Prism BUrst, Pink Lady ect as cast characters and I need to do right by them

I'm going to try and give myself a shot in the arm and try to be here more often, and I sincerely apologize for my absence.