Thank you hon. This has been the best piece of advice I have gotten thus far. Many people keep telling me how to feel...saying I shouldn't feel responsible. How can I not be? I was actually invited to the party that night but for some reason I didn't want to see guys there who...well...had been stalking me. But on the other hand, I felt depressed the whole night not even knowing it happened. On monday he was declared missing and they found his body over a guardrail on tuesday afternoon. A vehicle had hit him so hard that he died instantly. I went on the searches on Monday and we found nothing...I showed up on Tuesday to continue but no one was there. That's when I knew something either really good or bad happened. Unfortunately, that's when my whole life went into complete shock. The kid who I grew up with had died. I mean, I went to a very small school. I knew everyone and stayed there till sophomore year. Freshman year he and I talked a lot during class and all that...we laughed and he was just a cool guy. Recently before his accident we had started to hang out more with his girlfriend and things seemed pretty good...until now. I don't know how I just can't feel responsible. I shouldn't feel this way, but I do. And thank you for understanding that.
It wasn't anything about the anatomy...it was the overall emotion of this that I didn't like compared to the other one. The other one has a more graceful touch, while this one is just...bleh.