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*Disclaimer: I am by no stretch of the imagination an expert. This is about my personal experiences. If something here is inaccurate, please tell me. Hello everyone! As stated in the description, this is a personal rant blog. But, since some people might not know what being aro or ace means, this post is going to be more technical and explain common terms. Let's start with the basics: aro and ace. Aromantic (aro for short) is a romantic orientation. If you took science, you'll probably remember that the prefix a- means without or lacking. That's right, aros don't fall in romantic love with any gender. Some may be in Qprs (which I will explain later) and do romantically coded actions, or get married for tax benefits, but the attraction isn't there. No, I am not an emotionless robot. I also won't change my mind one I find "The One". Yes I still care about my family and friends. No, I'm not unhappy about being single. Asexual (ace for short) is not being sexually attracted to any gender. You may also rember this from science class, but with a different definition. I'll tell you now, any plant or bacteria jokes aren't funny and are actually dehumanizing. Those jokes are aphobic. Queer/Quasiplatonic relationships ( Qpr for short) a relationship that comes from a deep platonic bond. Not romantic, but not regular friendship. ( think 'bromance' but not for straight white dudes afraid of looking gay.) Now that I've got that covered, it's time to move on to some broader concepts and definitions. Now, one of the most important concepts is the aromantic and asexual spectrums. Repeat after me until you're chanting while you sleep: Being aromantic is a spectrum. Being asexual is a spectrum. Here are some of the diffrent spectrum definitions, keep in mind, this is not the entire spectrum. Fell free to pm me if you want more information or there is inaccurate information. I also recommend this link for more info about asexuality, and this form for more information about aromantics Grayro/ Grayace: experiences romantic/ sexual attraction occasionally, almost never. Demiromantic/ Demisexual: experiences romantic/sexual attraction after a strong bond is formed. This is not just being picky. People may choose to abstain until they know someone better, but Demis feel nothing until they get to know each other. How long this takes depends on the person. Cupiosexual/ Cupioromantic: experences no romantic/sexual attraction, but desires a romantic/sexual relationship anyway. Is a description, not an orientation on its own. On to another important concept: the split attraction model. The slit attraction model isn't just for aros and aces. Anyone can use it. Basically, it means that someone can have different sexual and romantic orientations. Someone could be panromantic asexual, biromantic homosexual, heterosexual aromantic. Literally anything is an option. This is all for now. Send me some questions of you want.
When I was just a child, I had a special skill to make friends with almost anyone I met. People enjoyed speaking with me, and getting to know me better, I was like a "friendship magnet". Upon my middle and high school years, I lost this ability. I became shy, nervous, and I easily made bad first impressions, and lost friends as the days went by. Eventually, I found myself alone, not a friend in the world to run to. I was sad, scared, and friendless. This eventually turned the shining personality I had inside out, no longer was I good at making friends, but good at losing them. Girls never really spoke with me, people would laugh and mock me, and the awkward days of the beginning of school only made this worse. Friends reuniting, and I would just stand in a corner simply twiddling my thumbs. Things got so bad, I would skip lunch and go to the library every day just to feel relaxed. When I would get kicked out of the library for going too much, I would just go and sit in the restrooms, it was a miserable time. I fell into a deep depression from all of this. Imagine the complete opposite of how I am now, that's who I was. A smile was the rarest thing to see on my face. As all students, I eventually graduated high school. Not surprising, but I had no friends to celebrate with when walking across that stage to take my diploma. At the end, the hats would fly and as they fell, I was walking across the football field, ready to go home and start the boring adult life I live in now. The internet is just about the only place I can find friends at this point. During one of my daily Yahoo! News checks, I seen something about "Bronies". To this day, the article's topic remains blurred in my mind. Whatever it was, it gained my curiosity enough to do some research on these Bronies. After I found out it was grown men liking My Little Pony, it made me curious as well as disturbed. I wondered what made these people tick? But, I had a past with watching "girly" shows like Powerpuff Girls, so I thought I would give it a shot, just to see what I could find in My Little Pony. I actually resisted watching the show a few times at first, but eventually gave in and fell in love with the Mane 6. First, it was Applejack, the southern sweetheart. Eventually, it went through them all (except Rainbow Dash). Around the time of Equestria Girls, the lack of MLP between the Season 3 finale and the movie was torturing. I actually came an inch close to losing my Brony faith. I never really considered any of who I had picked before to be my literal favorites, but a phase where I would just switch out every few days. I told myself that Equestria Girls was my last shot. If this movie didn't revive my faith in MLP, I would probably lose it for good. By the way, during this time, Twilight Sparkle was my pending favorite, as I wasn't sure if I wanted her to be my favorite yet. After Twilight becoming a princess, it only pushed me closer to discovering my guardian angel waifu. When I seen the movie, there was something about "Helping Twilight Sparkle Win the Crown" that completely woke my faded Brony side. I was filled with all the rainbows and magic my body could hold. After viewing the movie, I felt as a dead battery being completely recharged. I had never been into MLP more than that particular moment. Something inside me changed from seeing that movie, along with Magical Mystery Cure. It was the moment every Brony experiences sooner or later, the real choosing of your favorite pony. While it may not seem as big of a deal as I'm making it, this choice completely changed me inside and out. I've always said that you don't choose your favorite pony, but they choose you. And this was the feeling you get that I was referring to. With this event of Twilight Sparkle becoming such a big part of my life, my personality finally bloomed. I was happy, energetic, eager to make new friends and turn frowns upside down. Sure it sounds nothing short from Pinkie Pie, but it was the friendship inside that made these feelings possible. I could finally make friends again, make people smile, and they were rewards of their own. I've been asked from time to time if I truly believe in magic, which just happened to ironically be Twilight's Element of Harmony, while also meaning Friendship. As to magic being a real thing, I most certainly believe in it. But not from the view of making things levitate and being able to bend the will of reality itself, I truly believe that magic itself is the feeling you get inside when you make a new friend. The happy, giddy feeling you get that can't do anything but make you smile! I couldn't have learned anything about this, the true magic of friendship, without the help of Twilight Sparkle. Because of this wonderful pony, I've discovered who I am on the inside, who I really am. Not set down by the stereotypes my parents have nailed to my forehead, but who my heart wants me to be. Who am I? This is me. A year had passed, and the feeling of my Brony side had once again, begin to feel a fading feeling. I was worried about this, I loved being a Brony, I loved My Little Pony (still do!), I didn't want this magic inside to end. After a long day of stressing over such a thing, I had finally passed out from exhaustion. Something magical happened that night. A dream that had seemed half reality and half imagination, I found myself awake, on my back, in bed, staring down my chest. I seen a small light appear above my stomach. Can you guess whom it was? Twilight Sparkle, of course. At this point, I knew I was dreaming, but I decided to see what would carry out from this "dream" I was experiencing. Once Twily appeared from the center of the light (she was about the size of my fist, maybe doubled), she slowly landed on my chest and folded her wings back. I played along with this dream and asked her what she was doing here. Twilight sat down and looked me in the eyes, and told me she knew what was going on, why I was so worried and stressed. She knew what she had caused, and why I didn't want it to leave. She calmly told me that it was okay to feel this way, these kinds of things happen to everyone, let it flow naturally. Don't force myself to be something I can't have a passion for. I told her how much I didn't want it to end, I remember a tear rolling down my cheek, I loved Twilight, I told her. She told me that she felt the same, and that no matter what happens, she would always be in my heart. There with me through thick and thin, Brony or not, Twilight would always be with me, because she loved me too. I remember as she said so, she began to fly away and fade into the same light she appeared in. I remember the struggle of lifting my arm, due to being asleep and unable to move, by the time by arm was up, I was awake, and Twilight was gone. All this stress had passed, I felt relieved. I layed back down and rolled over, saying "Thank you, Twily", and dosed back off to sleep. At this moment I knew that Twilight was just more than my favorite pony. She was my teacher, my friend, my guardian angel.