... really?

No!

But who cares right?

So I have to start somewhere and this is it. Let's put some info in my opening entry:

I'm 20 years old

and I have no freakin' idea what life is going to be for me. This is what most entries will be about.

God, how boring.

No I was kidding. There will be entries about that topic, but due to the amount of time I have at the moment, most will rather be about entertaining things like images, music, stories and more.

Of course I will also adress things happening in the forum like the thing with Imagination challenging Artax on the topic of eg[colour=#000001]g[/colour]plants.

If you still didn't come across that hilarious event here is it:

http://www.canterlot.com/topic/12550-why-cant-i-say-eggyplant/page__st__40

Okay back to serious business.

I just quit college because I realized that physics is - even though I am really good at it - certainly not what I want to do in my life. They might say it gets better and blah. I don't want to bite myself through one year of boredom and hard work for more years of hard work to end in something that is no fun to me.

I rather want to do something creative. Playing in an orchestra, design stuff for a company - anything!

Now the world is open for me, but I don't know where to start looking. My mother has serious issues; because she is stupid. Yes I am sorry to write that, but she has to stop worrying in her life for once. I understand her concerns but its really getting on everyones nerves.

Back to myself: I'm very intelligent and a fast learning person with an quite creative mind.

So I can be everything! Sounds awesome right? Well no. I might be good at adjusting to changes, but even the slightest bit of routine and work can entirely screw my day. Not saying it must - a bit of work is really pushing me up in terms of mood and attitude - if I start cleaning my house I will really get it THAT clean - and I'm happy afterwards. But 90min train to college, annoying readings and endless pages of exercises that you don't even understand in the slightest? Yes that will make me come home and just fall into my bed. I cannot have that. Sorry, I don't work this way. I need way more "chill" and relaxing in my life to actually do something besides work like sports or music than someone else might need.

I just seem to have terrible trouble to get something going. I want to do sports as example but signing up to something? Or just going to the gym? Oh the effort! Oh the trouble! Drama!

What I want to do:

- Sports (a ball sport and martial arts)

- Music (Guitar, Piano and if I ever ever have the power for it - violin)

- Art (I already do that a lot, since I can just sit on the PC for it)

- Writing (I work on the plot of my novel since over a year)

- Science (if not as job I still want some science in my life)

A last word:

I have chosen this blog title for a reason. Not only do I know the trailer/cinematic music company "Two Steps From Hell", but also it describes my situation quite fittingly. I'm not directly at it, but I am very close to deciding how my life is going to look like, what my destiny in this world is going to be.