A stallion's only barrier is himself. Quite possibly, if one tries beyond events, it might turn easier to come to them instead of offering the opposite. Perhaps the problem may be (no harm meant) selfish in a way, and to postpone the party for others to attend would be correct?

I'm coming out of Depression episode, I'm about to meet a friend of mine from school! I got flutterflies on my stomach!

For you, my doctor could say that the depression can only be avoided when it's time, and what you get is what happens when you try to force it. You say that 2 or at least 1 answered, grab that guy/guys hard and don't let them go! Embrace friendship! It REALLY pays for itself!

Doing exactly that, I am finding ways to keep my myself occupied and my mind off of my depression etc.. I was thinking of changing the date for the party again, but I've already done that once or twice, and I feel that was enough. I'm spending a bit more time with my family (my wife and 2 kids), well as much as I can bare of them (due to my disability), I give my cat and dog cuddles all the time (they are my stress relievers) and I play the bass guitar. But sometimes, not often, but sometimes the depression etc is so bad that nothing can shake it from me...