SilverSwirl

I still feel the abyss calling to me, it grows more attractive everyday. Its siren song is worming its way into my mind..... OH GOD HELP ME!!!

Full conscience wipes are much more difficult and dangerous, Silver, as this man clearly proves. Attempt at your own risk.

That was funny and made my day just a little bit brighter.

I am highly considering immolation.

Can I get a brain wipe?

I carry the burden's of many people (things they have confided in me that I am keeping secret, some things that are so disturbing that I think that may be one of the reasons I am extremely out of sorts from my regular, manic, happy self). I am a strong person but there is always something stronger. I am fighting it and I will probably prevail, it will just take time. I am 20 years of age.

Current contents of my brain in pictorial form: First image in the spoiler is a quite graphic drawing inspired by the old Splatterhouse games. VIEWER DISCRETION GREATLY ADVISED!

I think that part of the problem is that I am a sort of emotional sponge, I absorb my friends feelings and compartmentalize it, but when I need to release it, I just can't!

What is there to enjoy? All of my friends have pulled up their roots and left me here, my roots just seem to be dug in too deep.... I can't find a job to finance me to be able to leave this town.... I don't know what else to do but sit here and wait for the inevitable,

I just can't shake it. If this goes on, what is in the spoiler could be my emotional state of feeling. I am resisting as hard as I can, but I feel like I am losing the fight.

I enjoy the Studio Ghibli films, haven't seen many of them but it isn't like I am not planning on watching them, just keep having things get in the way.

Imagination:

Refresh my memory on that..... Oh wait..... Congratulations!

Aria: I understand your point, it's just difficult since my great-grandmother passed away a few months ago. I have let most of it go but it is still with me.

Welcome to the forums! Have a cupcake and take a seat. We have much to talk about....

I got the scaredy tingles thinking of that... But don't worry! There's always jobs for ponies willing to work, and employers can't discriminate based on disabilities or anything! I believe in you Silver! Also I'm still here to keep you company Neat new signature by the way!

Special thanks to my Steam friend Wolfman who did it for me. This version is different from the one I have for my other boards I lurk.... The size is optimized for your sig pic specifications. Thanks to all who understand where I am at in my life but I am feeling the grim specter of death surrounding me.... I can feel it creeping up on me but it is still far behind me.... I believe it is weighing its options on whether to go with Type 2 Diabetes (Which my grandfather has, and in turn puts me at even greater risk of getting it) or something else entirely.

5/5 for deadpool!

Trust me, I have it really bad... I once fell onto the open door of our dishwasher and broke a wheel off the sliding rack and almost impaled myself on a few sharp knives that were placed blades up in the dishwasher.... All because I had to have one of those attacks....

But I think that is enough for one day... Inspiration will come to me but until then I will cling to what I have left and hope for the best.

Greetings, good pony, and welcome to the forums! Please enjoy your stay, but go easy on the oatmeal okay?

Welcome to the forums!

No, thank you Pinkie. I haven't been to college yet so maybe I should just go there, but when I try to think about my future and plan for it, my brain goes into overdrive and fries out so I lose vision and get muscle spasms.... I doubt anyone would hire me if I was like that.... Plus having Asperger's Syndrome doesn't help my case very much....

You are also right in your own way Bramble but you know exactly what I meant.

Also, I have been trying for over 2 years and I just don't have the motivation/hope to continue anymore in this town.

Welcome to the forums!

I know and I thank you Pinkie. I feel like I am losing my sanity though..... I am broke, unemployed, no car, and can't find a job. It's killing me inside....

Welcome to the forums!

I don't know, I think it's just so close to St. Valentine's Day and I have no one to love......

So lonely....