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  1. shyshy
    kick me while it hurts
    --------------------------
    relax,
    i'm just, crawlin' on the floor.
    you wont hear me, just ignore,
    me and i'll stay outa sight.
    it's cold,
    down here, lyin' on the floor.
    you're outside the door.
    lookin down at me through the glass.
    you,
    can all, go and kiss my ass.
    blow a little brass.
    do a "sing a song" kinda dance.
    on,
    my grave, where you wont hear me.
    tryin' not to breathe.
    dead is all, i wanna be.
    [chorus]
    the more ya kick while me while im down,
    the more the more i love bein' kicked.
    the more ya point at me and frown,
    the more i wish i could i relate.
    noone on this goddamn planet,
    hates me more than me.
    yeah, try me you will see,
    i like bein' kicked in the teeth.
    [bridge]
    relax,
    im just, singin' ya a song.
    it wont take long.
    just gonna pour out my heart.
    you,
    will always, have a spot in there.
    little spot just for you.
    while i sing the blues.
    hate,
    me, and only me.
    i am never free.
    only im judgein' me.
    kick,
    me, here in the teeth.
    somewhere where it hurts.
    make my pleasure burst.
    [chorus]
    the more ya kick while me while im down,
    the more the more i love bein' kicked.
    the more ya point at me and frown,
    the more i wish i could i relate.
    noone on this goddamn planet,
    hates me more than me.
    yeah, try me you will see,
    i like bein' kicked in the teeth.
    but for all the good i am,
    i see no good in me.
    i wanna destroy all i am.
    i see no reson to live.
    but after all i've learned,
    i guess that i could say i,
    never felt this way but,
    i wouldnt change a thing for the world!
    every little pain and,
    all of my disgraces,
    only make me hate me,
    just a little more!
    [solo]
    relax,
    im just lyin' on the floor.
    no use openin the door.
    you cant save me from my wrath.
    no,
    way, in a thousand hells,
    i could feel swell.
    only hate for my ugly face.
    and,
    when i see my face.
    i decide my fate.
    cut my flesh and laugh it off.
    i,
    guess, i am just insane.
    keep me locked away.
    in my dreams i see,
    no survivors.
    you are all dead to me.
    raging fires.
    the cities bow to me.
    big red banners.
    propaganda praising me.
    i hate it all.
    it drives me to insanity.
    [chorus]
    the more ya kick while me while im down,
    the more the more i love bein' kicked.
    the more ya point at me and frown,
    the more i wish i could i relate.
    noone on this goddamn planet,
    hates me more than me.
    yeah, try me you will see,
    i like bein' kicked in the teeth.
    [end]

  2. shyshy

    [8/11/12]We Are Cancer

    By shyshy,

    we are cancer
    -------------
    i am,
    diseased.
    slowly,
    dying.
    a cancer.
    in my brain.
    i am,
    dying.
    [bridge]
    i am,
    diseased.
    slowly,
    dying.
    a cancer.
    in my brain.
    i am,
    dying.
    [chorus]
    but what they dont ever tell you,
    is that we are all dying all the time.
    what they dont ever say,
    is how much time we have left.
    but ill tell you im dyin'.
    hmmmm,
    ive got disease.
    [bridge]
    i am,
    diseased.
    slowly,
    dyin'.
    i cant see,
    with my eyes.
    i breathe,
    disease.
    [bridge]
    i am,
    diseased.
    only,
    dyin'.
    a cancer,
    with plague.
    i danced with,
    the devil today.
    [chorus]
    but what they dont ever tell you,
    is that we are all dying all the time.
    what they dont ever say,
    is how much time we have left.
    but ill tell you im dyin'.
    hmmmm,
    ive got disease.
    [solo]
    but what they dont ever tell you,
    is that we are all dying all the time.
    what they dont ever say,
    is how much time we have left.
    but ill tell you im dyin'.
    hmmmm,
    ive got a disease.
    we are all dyin'.
    hmmmm,
    the devil's toll is free.
    we are all dying.
    hmmmm,
    devil says my soul is his to keep.
    we are all diseases.
    hmmmm,
    a cancer on the world.
    [bridge]
    we are all dying.
    we are all dying.
    we are all dying so why not live a little.
    we are all disease.
    we are all disease.
    we all got disease so lets live a little.
    we are cancer.
    we are all cancer.
    we are all cancer in a beautiful world.
    [bridge and end]

  3. shyshy

    [8/7/2012]Pride

    By shyshy,

    pride
    -----
    i've got pride, and im fine.
    i've got talent, but i got no shame.
    i got freedom, but i cant use it.
    i cant let myself be,
    the man i am.
    the man i love.
    the man with power.
    the man with pride.
    [chorus]
    without my pride, i sware i'd die.
    without my dreams, im lost.
    without my talent, im afraid.
    afraid that you'll be, better than me!
    [bridge]
    i've got shame, but who's to blame?
    i got no talent, but i've got pride.
    you are all, better than me.
    but i've got pride, on my side!
    i'm not talented!
    im a lie.
    i got no dream,
    to keep me alive!
    [chorus]
    without my pride, i sware i'd die.
    without my dreams, im lost.
    without my talent, im afraid.
    afraid that you'll be, better than me!
    but how can you be, better than me?
    im not perfect, but im livin the dream!
    im no jesus, but im the best at what i do,
    and i've got nothing to prove, to you!
    [bridge]
    you know it for a fact.
    i do not lie.
    i am the best at wanting to die.
    we all have our guilty pleasures,
    but how many of us,
    satisfy our deepest desires?
    [solo]
    i do not lie.
    i do not lie.
    i do not lie.
    you cannot hide.
    you cannot hide.
    you cannot hide.
    i got my pride,
    here by my side,
    to keep me going.
    i will die,
    satasfied.
    and thats, better than you!
    [chorus]
    without my pride, i sware i'd die.
    without my dreams, im lost.
    without my talent, im afraid.
    afraid that you'll think, you're better than me!
    i wont give in.
    i dont submit,
    but i gave in,
    to my desires!
    i got pride, i got talent, i got shame.
    i got eyes, i got fear, i got shame.
    god aint here, god aint real, god's a fake.
    [bridge]
    i've got my pride!
    now,
    i will live on forever.
    i am the best at living,
    and,
    now im bored with life...
    [fade to end]

  4. shyshy
    mama ruined me
    --------------
    [bridge]
    i was sure, i was...
    i was sure the time was right.
    we got lost on the highway,
    the road that leads home.
    symphony of godless.
    symphony of angels.
    symphony of the damned.
    symphony of righteous men!
    [solo]
    i was a boy.
    i liked boys.
    mama said it was blasphemy.
    i shot mama twice.
    she screamed like a little girl.
    i smiled and laughed and tuned,
    away from the blood and mess.
    i turned away from my shame.
    mama i killed a girl.
    mama im sorry.
    mama, mama say something!
    ma im gonna kill a man.
    [chorus]
    symphony of godless.
    symphony of angels.
    symphony of the damned.
    symphony of the righteous man!
    how could i have gone so wrong?
    mama was it really so wrong?
    sorry mama i love him.
    mama sorry i dont love you.
    symphony of godless.
    symphony of pain.
    symphony of gunshot.
    sympathy aint free.
    [bridge]
    i was a man.
    i was in jail.
    mama never said anything again.
    mama ima brand new man.
    ma im sorry i loved that man.
    ya didnt have to die that way.
    when he found out,
    mama, my man left me.
    my love im sorry im gonna pray.
    mama im gonna kill a man.
    shot my love in his heart.
    ended lover's heart-ache.
    [chorus]
    symphony of godless.
    symphony of angels.
    symphony of the damned.
    symphony of the righteous man!
    how could i have gone so wrong?
    my love was it really so wrong?
    sorry mama i loved him.
    my love sorry i dont love you any more.
    symphony of godless.
    symphony of pain.
    symphony of gunshot.
    sympathy aint free...
    [bridge]
    mama you ruined me!
    [solo]
    i lived to love.
    i focussed my pain.
    i tried to compromise.
    in the end i became a killer.
    mama raised me with violence.
    cigarette burns and a cage.
    father died and they dont know who did it.
    im sure it was me, me, me!
    lover loved me but never like this!
    he loved my soul but not my sin!
    lover tore my heart apart!
    destiny taught me to run in one direction!
    live by the gun, always run, never give in!
    tear em all apart, never let live!
    dangerous, pale lips, and a nervous wreck!
    take my heart for a ride!
    story told from my view!
    never far from the truth!
    i sit in a cage and rot!
    just like sittin' at home as a kid!
    lord knows i miss those days!
    i miss ya momma!
    i miss my daddy!
    i miss my lover!
    god silence me!
    [bridge]
    mama ima kill a man.
    ima put a gun to my head.
    ima end my terror.
    ima stop my dangerous ways.
    mama your little boy was always stupid.
    mama you ruined me.
    i never knew guns would kill ya.
    i know it's how i wanna go.
    next to me i got my savior.
    i got me a gun to end it all.
    [bridge repeats and fades to end]

  5. shyshy
    lord of sheep
    -------------
    dig a whole and leave your worries.
    hold on to your good memories.
    forget the past and live for,
    the future...
    love notes and long lost love letters.
    story book will make him better.
    price charming died and you're all,
    alone...
    [chorus]
    he's as cheap as a dime,
    and you dont have the time to waste on him.
    sleep alive and well at home.
    realize the life we live.
    sheep of people and,
    shephard's gone astray!
    apathy.
    go to sleep.
    follow me,
    little sheep.
    [bridge]
    dive in head first and headstrong.
    so little time left to goof off.
    live you lives you sheep of men,
    you're mine...
    crooked men have crooked spines.
    bitter men dont have a smile.
    god is god but god is not,
    real...
    [chorus]
    he's as cheap as a dime,
    and you dont have the time to waste on him.
    sleep alive and well at home.
    realize the life we live.
    sheep of people and,
    shephard's gone astray.
    push you all around and step upon your dreams.
    warned you all a thousand times again!
    apathy.
    go to sleep.
    follow me,
    little sheep.
    [bridge]
    but we can change for those we love.
    change who we are inside.
    searhing for who to be,
    to impress dead prince charming...
    dig a whole and leave your worries.
    hold on to your good memories.
    forget the past and live for,
    the future...
    [pause then solo]
    [chorus]
    he's as cheap as a dime,
    and you dont have the time to waste on him.
    sleep alive and well at home.
    realize the life we live.
    sheep of people and,
    shephard's gone astray.
    apathy.
    go to sleep.
    follow me,
    little sheep.
    god aint real.
    sit dog, heel.
    do as i say.
    dont question me.
    apathy.
    go my way.
    die for me,
    like prince charming.
    follow me,
    little sheep.
    [end]

  6. shyshy
    it feels good
    -------------
    blurry vision and catfish breath,
    now im hangin' over.
    deteriorated mental state,
    i was high and floating.
    they say nicotine stains your finger tips.
    i say the pleasure is all mine.
    she said i was her only but,
    that was just a lie!
    [chorus]
    she's a liar,
    im an addict.
    she's is crazy,
    toys in the attic.
    i got to close,
    for comfort.
    drain my wallet,
    while i slumber and sleep,
    the same bed and sheets.
    [bridge]
    cigarette burns mark my back.
    what a good time.
    the burning sensation has gone away.
    the love has come back.
    i just wanna tell you that i,
    never loved you before!
    sleep in silence,
    rape my body.
    but kiss my neck,
    before you bite!
    [chorus]
    she's a liar,
    im an addict.
    she's is crazy,
    toys in the attic.
    i got to close,
    for comfort.
    drain my wallet,
    while i slumber and sleep,
    the same bed and sheets.
    [solo]
    bruises spell your name on my back.
    might as well get a tattoo.
    maybe it will look as good as you,
    with a bottle in your mouth.
    the bite marks bled and broke skin.
    the numb is settin' in.
    i want you to know i was better,
    off all alone!
    smoking made me happy but,
    with you i lose control!
    drinking made me woosy but,
    with you im never old!
    [chorus]
    she's a liar,
    im an addict.
    she's is crazy,
    toys in the attic.
    i got to close,
    for comfort.
    drain my wallet,
    while i slumber and sleep,
    the same bed and sheets.
    what can i say?
    it feels good.
    [bridge]
    it feels good...
    it feels right...
    cigarette burns mark my back!
    bite marks on my thighs!
    bruises everywhere!
    a million times i'll take you back!
    [chorus]
    she's a liar,
    im an addict.
    she's is crazy,
    toys in the attic.
    i got to close,
    for comfort.
    drain my wallet,
    while i slumber and sleep,
    the same bed and sheets.
    but what can i do?
    she does as she sees fit!
    im a toy for her to chew.
    and broken bones are on the list,
    and i can hardly wait!
    [bridge]
    it feels good...
    babe you feel good!
    burn me once again!
    where me like a dress!
    i will not protest.
    it hurts but thats okay...
    [bridge and end]

  7. shyshy
    how i feel
    ----------
    [chorus]
    i taste, i touch, but i never feel.
    dont ask me about myself.
    its in the past, im in the past, and i aint comin' back.
    the world can do without me.
    never ask, ill never tell, and you'll never know.
    i dont even know myself.
    dont ask how i feel, cuz i dont feel anything.
    so i cant say i even know.
    [solo]
    we are but children in this wild, wild world.
    and secrets are best kept safe.
    we are by ourselves, and thats fine by me.
    i dont need no one else around.
    times passed, and time waits, but never stands still.
    i suppose thats what i believe.
    but in the past, i remember, you asked me,
    "honey, what do you feel?"
    i remember i told ya, "Dont you ever ask!"
    and i stormed alone in the night.
    [chorus]
    i taste, i touch, but i never feel.
    dont ask me about myself.
    its in the past, im in the past, and i aint comin' back.
    the world can do without me.
    never ask, ill never tell, and you'll never know.
    i dont even know myself.
    dont ask how i feel, cuz i dont feel anything.
    so i cant say i even know.
    [solo]
    [silence]
    i see, i hear, but i never learn.
    my life has been too long.
    im in the past, thats where i belong.
    dont you come lookin for me!
    [chorus]
    i taste, i touch, but i never feel.
    dont ask me about myself.
    its in the past, im in the past, and i aint comin' back.
    the world can do without me.
    never ask, ill never tell, and you'll never know.
    i dont even know myself.
    dont ask how i feel, cuz i dont feel anything.
    so i cant say i even know.
    [solo fades to end]

  8. shyshy
    Hello Canterlot, this is a review of the Indie FPS Ace Of Spades (abbreviated AoS), a personal favourite of mine.
    Basic Game Info:
    Ace of Spades is a free multiplayer game made by Indie Game Developer Ben Aksoy that combines both the elements of an FPS and sandbox construction like minecraft.
    Players can choose between 2 teams and fight in rivers, mountains, or custom terrains. The player must take on a block based world where he or she can build or destroy basically anything that renders, with the ultimate goal of eliminating the opposing team and capturing their Intel.
    "Development on Ace of Spades began around 6 months prior to the initial public release, which was on April 4th, 2011." - AoS Wiki
    Gameplay:
    gameplay is alot like a mix between minecraft, Counter Strike, and Team Fortress 2. it has all the features of your standard FPS with a highly processed and intricate yet simple creative aspect. 99.99% of the ENTIRE MAP is able to be destroyed.
    players choose between 2 colour coded teams and battle head to head to complete their objective. usually, to eliminate the opposing team or capture the enemy intel.
    players will be able to use an assortment of weapons of tools that will only grow as development continues. as of Beta 0.75 (now) you can choose between 3 primary weapons: Shotgun, Rifle, SMG. along with the primary you get 3 grenades, 50 blocks for building with adjustable color coding, and a spade (shovel). every one of these items serves as a means of killing your opponents and completing various tasks. each weapon has the ability to use iron sights and has recoil. both of these things are very realistic for such a game, and in my opinion is comparable to games like BattleField 3 and Call Of Duty Modern Warfare 3 (both of which i own and have played my fair share of)
    below is a quick rundown on each item.
    Modding: The game also boasts the ability to improve the game performance and experience by modding the textures of various things as well as modifying the sounds and adding maps. a list of different mods and examples below.
    Media:
    http://gamebanana.com/aos <-- popular reliable mod source (i use it. its safe and worth it)
    http://www.ace-spades.com/ <-- Ace Of Spades website
    http://aceofspadeswiki.com/ <-- AoS Wiki
    http://ace-spades.com/forums/ <-- AoS Forum
    screenshots

    official trailer
    My Rating (1-5 stars): 4 stars
  9. shyshy

    [7/9/2012]Valley

    By shyshy,

    Valley
    ------
    [solo for opener]
    We’ve walk too far.
    We walked alone.
    We walked too far in the shadow!
    We walked near.
    Yeah, we walked far.
    Walk the valley of the shadow death!
    [bridge]
    The webs they weave,
    The webs we broke,
    As they fade in the shadow!
    The empty eyes.
    The empty soul.
    And an empty promise!
    [Chorus]
    We walk the valley, (we're searching for a brand new home)
    A taste of chaos, (we're licking clean, our brand new wounds)
    A new brand of courage, (empty eyes, empty lives, empty souls)
    I taste the enmity! (Watch it swell to a full)
    [bridge]
    We won’t die.
    We are alive.
    We are living in chains!
    Watch the anger,
    Rise in me.
    Temperature of a million degrees!
    [bridge]
    Darkness rises.
    Light falls.
    Cycle of the days.
    Shadow clothes,
    The barren land.
    Built alone, by devil's hands!
    [Chorus]
    We walk the valley, (we're searching for a brand new home)
    A taste of chaos, (we're licking clean, our brand new wounds)
    A new brand of courage, (empty eyes, empty lives, empty souls)
    I taste the enmity! (Watch it swell to a full)
    [solo]
    [Chorus]
    We walk the valley.
    We’re searching for a brand new home!
    A taste of chaos.
    We’re licking clean, our brand new wounds!
    A new brand of courage.
    Empty eyes, empty lives, empty souls!
    I taste the enmity!
    Watch it swell to a full!
    [end]

  10. shyshy
    so recently my physician told me to stop taking my meds because i dont need em anymore and they were causing liver damage. i remember how mad i felt every single time i was told to take my meds every morning when i was on em. i took 4-6 pills a day (depending on the day of the week). so this summarizes it. imagine my ma tellin me to take my meds.
    --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
    take you pills, Psycho
    ----------------------
    so you wanna forget?
    well i promise you will.
    with this pill,
    all it takes...
    the pain is gone.
    atleast, til morning.
    redemption and guilt.
    drown away with a pill!
    introduce the drugs.
    inject the venom.
    scratch away,
    peel your face...
    pity is dead.
    no redemption.
    just take the pill...
    swallow the pills!
    [solo]
    trial and error,
    time and time again.
    you disgrace!
    feel the pain...
    i gotta pill,
    now, take it!
    peel it away,
    the foggy eyes.
    harsh intentions,
    no redemption.
    i got you a pill...
    swallow the pill!
    [breakdown]
    we all make mistakes.
    we experience,
    heartbreaks.
    we are a collective.
    hive mind is endless.
    destroy the mind,
    remember nothing.
    away with the bad,
    away with the pain.
    ill show you a world,
    of, redemption!
    but ya gotta take your pills...
    you're ****ig insane.
    so, drink this.
    wash down the pill,
    along with your pain...
    [solo]
    you are completely mad.
    you mind is completely lost.
    im suprised you live alone.
    institutions would lock you away.
    medicate you, and drill your life.
    but you're only insane,
    so enjoy the charade!
    the pills will make you real.
    the pills will forget how ya feel...
    take the pill!
    take the pill!
    take your pills!
    take you goddamn,
    mother ****ing,
    cock sucking,
    anti-depressants and mood regulators,
    call a doc in the mornin',
    and lie to his face when he asks how ya feel!
    you will tell him,
    "i feel normal",
    he will tell you,
    "keep taking pills".
    you will be angry.
    he wont understand.
    so take your pill!
    [breakdown and fade]

  11. shyshy
    judgmental influences
    ----------------------
    the dust reminds me,
    of a time when we were still together.
    my anger boils inside,
    and now im throwing up.
    the earth reminds,
    of a place i want to go: afterlife.
    my skin is caving in,
    my heart is driving out.
    [chorus]
    where's my love?
    will i stay here cryin'?
    will i choke?
    where's my angel flyin to!?
    beneath the sands of time,
    under the stench of hope,
    between the many lies,
    a secret tomb!
    [bridge]
    the end reminds me,
    of the day you said your goodbyes.
    the teeth that sunk in my skin,
    are burnin' in hell.
    the judgement took him,
    far away and now im left to mourn him.
    it seems like all ive got,
    is momentos, now hes gone.
    [chorus]
    where's my love?
    will i stay here cryin'?
    will i choke?
    where's my angel flyin to!?
    beneath the sands of time,
    under the stench of judgement,
    before i die,
    i wanna visit his secret tomb!
    [solo]
    the angels mock me,
    they'll never bring my love back to me.
    the betrayal defies my heart,
    and defiles my hope.
    my flesh is writhing,
    my heart is broke, and i have no more chances.
    the kisses on my back,
    have faded beyond earth.
    [chorus]
    where's the love?
    why am i still cryin'?
    let me choke!
    where's my angel flyin to!?
    beneath the sands of time,
    under the stench of hope,
    between the many lies,
    a secret tomb!
    forged from hell fire,
    and brought to me from the abyss,
    another day to love him,
    with all i have to offer!
    the judgement was too much!
    the anger they directed to us!
    our superiors hated,
    the love that we built up!
    save me!
    save him!
    preserve our bodies!
    or leave us forever,
    leave us to rot!
    cherish!
    perish!
    punish our love!
    ill never be,
    the son you wanted!
    anguish!
    mourning!
    the son you lost!
    he went to join his dead lover!
    know me?!
    know not!
    im not your son!
    ill never change for,
    you or anyone!
    [solo]
    i will never change!
    i will still remain, hurt!
    the pressures and judgement sent your son,
    to his grave!
    [chorus]
    where's my love?
    will i stay here cryin'?
    will i choke?
    where's my angel flyin to!?
    [fade]

  12. shyshy
    grunge aint dead
    ----------------
    where is my abuse?
    what have i to lose?
    what hapenned to all my pain?
    i miss the old days.
    why dont i have the right,
    to die choking on the words i write?
    [chorus]
    if there's a sun,
    there's a moon up high,
    to block the vision of the sun.
    in the night,
    in the night!
    grunge...
    aint dead...
    [bridge]
    when music was melancholy,
    i used to listen some.
    i hate the ****in' police,
    shifty guys with shifty eyes.
    bleach stains on my soul.
    out with the new in with the old.
    why cant i be confused?
    i miss bein' used.
    i aint gota reaso left to fight.
    instead ill stay and die watchin the sun fall down.
    [chorus]
    if there's a gun,
    there's are heads held high,
    in the pathway of the gun.
    im not nice,
    i aint alright!
    grunge...
    aint dead...
    cherished...
    garbage...
    yeah, yeah, yeah.
    [solo]
    grunge is back.
    grunge is alive.
    grunge is dead.
    thats a lie.
    grunge is dead.
    im still alright.
    all in all.
    grunge is alive.
    for all we are,
    is all we do.
    im alive.
    and so are you.
    grunge is back.
    grunge aint dead...
    [fade]

  13. shyshy
    the rejected
    ------------
    my apologies.
    i never ment to hurt a soul.
    instead ill take a walk.
    ill go away and keep on walkin til,
    ooh, til im gone.
    ooh, til im gone.
    [chorus]
    i walk alone across the earth,
    searching for a place like home.
    but home will never forgive,
    home will never forget.
    [bridge]
    ill take my crime and leave.
    dwelling upon my punishment.
    i only wanted love.
    but what i got was rejection because,
    ooh, because of who i am.
    ooh, who i am.
    i am.
    yeeaahh.
    [chorus]
    i walk alone across the earth,
    searching for a place like home.
    but home will never forgive,
    home will never understand.
    and what i chose was to walk,
    by myself until im missed.
    lord knows it'll be so long.
    that's fine,
    i can wait...
    [solo]
    [chorus]
    i walk alone across the earth,
    searching for a place im loved.
    but home will never change,
    home will never change.
    no no no.
    no no,
    never change.
    run run run,
    run away,
    never return.
    hate hate hate,
    i hate you,
    ******* son.
    ill reject you until you're gone.
    get goin' son.
    "y'all aint dead yet."
    [solo and fade]

  14. shyshy
    clean bleach
    -------------
    i swear i wont tell anyone.
    you secret is safe with me.
    i will torture you irregardless.
    your soul belongs to me.
    sinning is wonderful.
    temptations...
    ill show you what temptation means.
    [solo]
    i wont let you down this time.
    i will not waste you on greed.
    lust is far too powerful.
    pain is magical to me.
    sinning is powerful.
    benevolence...
    ill show you benevolence is dead!
    [chorus]
    for all we are,
    is worthless false security.
    and all you want,
    is purity.
    clarity is priceless,
    and sin is clean.
    wasted,
    wasted,
    and clean...
    [bridge]
    everyone around me is beautiful.
    sinners and saints and me.
    woven together in the universe.
    the universe is angry at me.
    timeless and pricless are different.
    time...
    ill show you time is up!
    [chorus]
    for all we are,
    is worthless false security.
    and all you want,
    is purity.
    clarity is priceless,
    and sin is clean.
    wasted,
    wasted,
    and bleach!
    [solo]
    i wont ever apologize.
    not for what i didnt do.
    dont try and pin this all on me.
    you are entirely to blame.
    dissolution follows in my wake.
    sanity...
    it is all the same to me...
    [fade with bridge]

  15. shyshy
    forever winter
    ---------------
    [solo for opener]
    it's cold!
    [solo]
    (ooh X2)
    snow falls down.
    we fall now.
    [breakdown]
    ever since my every dream,
    the questions come to me.
    when will i ever stay fast asleep?
    slept under burning coals.
    welcoming the cold.
    question all you know...
    [chorus]
    is it winter yet!?
    is it a day i will love?
    is it winter yet..?
    (freezing)
    i've slept in a fiery world,
    (freezing)
    when the morning comes,
    the snow will fall forever.
    and it's forever winter...
    [bridge]
    snow falls down.
    we fall now...
    ever since the morning light,
    the snow has fallen down.
    marching forward to behead the crown.
    no mercy for the king,
    who prophesised we'd freeze.
    even now,
    i feel alive...
    [chorus]
    is it winter yet!?
    is it time to slay the crown?
    is it winter yet..?
    (freezing)
    i've slept in a fiery world,
    (freezing)
    when the morning comes,
    the snow will fall forever.
    and it's forever winter...
    (freezing)
    trapped in a lonely dream,
    when the snow falls i will find,
    myself alone.
    forever winter,
    all alone.
    [solo]
    [slow acoustics]
    i cant change my fate...
    i said, i can change my face...
    no words to defile me.
    stone cold weather forever more!
    forever winter will be!
    and we behead the crown...
    now, he may be out of time,
    but one day he will return.
    when the snow thaws and we are exposed,
    the king will take his throne.
    beyond these weary eyes,
    the darker side of our minds.
    they say we will freeze alone.
    i say it's far too hot...
    [breakdown]
    when you,
    decide to open your eyes,
    you'll see snow fallin outside.
    calamity and vengence resides,
    within my stone cold heart!
    [solo]
    [chorus]
    i can hear the ice cracking in early spring.
    (forever winter)
    i can see the rising dawn of the slain king.
    (forever all alone)
    (freezing)
    i've slept in a fiery world,
    (freezing)
    when the morning comes,
    the snow will fall forever.
    and it's forever winter...
    [solo]
    [slow acoustics and piano]
    the light,
    will melt,
    the snow...
    the light,
    will melt,
    the snow...
    the light,
    will melt,
    the snow..!
    the night,
    will freeze,
    our hearts.
    the fight,
    will waste,
    our souls!
    the light,
    will melt,
    the snow...
    tonight,
    we fall,
    forever winter!
    [breakdown and fade]

  16. shyshy
    ballad of the soldier
    ----------------------
    story of the broken,
    a letter wrote in fear.
    the pages are old and,
    stained with tears.
    colliding broken worlds,
    with words highly revered.
    i held my head up high,
    "a pleasure to be here"...
    [chorus]
    while times change,
    im standin' here.
    and ive lost my will stay awake...
    (ooh)
    it was just another mistake!
    taught me to kill a man.
    made damn sure i had a plan...
    (ooh)
    another soldier ready to die!
    [bridge]
    ill turn the pages,
    you will read my pain.
    i saw them dig my grave.
    my blood was just a stain.
    for all i sacrificed,
    i saw too much to bear.
    i raised the flag,
    "i will stand prepared"...
    [chorus]
    while times change,
    im standin' here.
    and ive lost my will stay awake...
    (ooh)
    it was just another mistake!
    taught me to kill a man.
    made damn sure i had a plan...
    (ooh)
    another soldier ready to die!
    [solo]
    no good lasts forever.
    all must one day die.
    a thousand scattered souls,
    consumed by those who lie.
    and every single season,
    knee deep in blood and pain,
    was wasted potential.
    i coulda made a change...
    [breakdown]
    so god made no salvtion!
    left us all to rot!
    "well congratulations,
    ya made it through another night"...
    "we dont need a reason!
    the money's all the same".
    "your lives are prophet to us",
    your lives will all go to waste...
    (yeaaahhh!)
    [solo]
    [chorus]
    while times change,
    im standin' here.
    and ive lost my will stay awake...
    (ooh)
    we are just fueling the machine!
    taught me to kill a man.
    made damn sure i had a plan...
    (ooh)
    another soldier hung his head today!
    [bridge]
    i swore i'd change!
    made damn sure had a plan!
    we cannot change,
    "live life on duty til ya die!"
    so sorry sir.
    "i got your back".
    you lying cur!
    "you fed the worms".
    [fade]

  17. shyshy
    i made this a few months ago but never gt around to releasing it. here ya go.
    --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
    euphoria drug
    --------------
    i write my last love song today.
    how could i ever forget?
    i tasted my last wrotten apple.
    bittersweet just as sorrow.
    how could i forget?
    yeah, i wont ever forget.
    the razor grazes your skin.
    what do you even feel?
    you tasted your blood for the last time.
    what do you even feel?
    yeah, how did it taste?
    oh, and if the needle is stuck on empty.
    maybe its time for a repair.
    the glass and the jar are both empty.
    my hands are covered by scars.
    [bridge]
    oh, and you can never know.
    yeah yeah yeah.
    you can never know.
    yeah yeah yeah.
    oh, and the needle has found a home.
    a home, yeah yeah.
    you can never go home.
    go home, yeah yeah.
    [bridge]
    i took my last look today.
    how could i ever forget?
    i bit off just a little too strong.
    took more away than i planned.
    why did i ever forget?
    yeah, we just forget.
    the haze clears and fills your lungs.
    yeah just inhale and bake.
    your mouth is full of bugs.
    oh, man just inhale and bake.
    bake away in the haze.
    [bridge]
    oh and you can go home.
    yeah yeah, oh oh.
    man, just go on home.
    while it aint too late.
    oh, the haze burnin' blaze.
    trippin' on my rope.
    yeah man, burny blaze.
    trippin' out on my haze.
    [solo of some sort]
    now i tell you, it's just a drug.
    made of love.
    it's euphoria.
    euphoria drug.
    **** wont do ya no harm.
    just wrap you in arms.
    it's euphoria.
    euphoria love.
    euphoria, in my lungs.
    euphoria, euphoria.
    razors break into your numb.
    euphoria drug.
    train wrecked, out of love.
    euphoria, euphoria.
    smashed my dreams, out of drugs.
    euphoria drugs.
    euphoria drugs.
    yeah man it's just euphoria drugs.
    [bridge]
    oh and peace can go and wait.
    enraged by love, and the drug.
    spirits fill my lungs with hate.
    dysphoria, burnin' me up.
    [bridge]
    can i get a moment to myslef?
    yeah, jus', lemme be all alone.
    well youngin' watcha got to say for yourself?
    i guess it aint all that bad.
    well there son i tell ya what.
    ya keep doin that **** you're gonna get ****ed up.
    pa, why cant i stop?
    boy ima tell ya your trippin' on euphoria.
    [another solo thing]
    euphoria, in my lungs.
    euphoria, euphoria.
    blazey blaze, blazin' haze.
    hazey haze, hazey blaze.
    euphoria, in my lungs.
    euphoria, euphoria.
    man, i tell ya what.
    your trippin on euphoria.
    euphoria, in my lungs.
    euphoria, euphoria.
    euphoria.
    euphoria.
    euphoria.
    dysphoria.
    euphoria.
    euphoria.
    euphoria.
    dysphoria.
    euphoria.
    euphoria.
    euphoria.
    euphoria.
    [end]

  18. shyshy
    this was written by request for a friend who is not a member of this community. she wanted em to write it for her in an attempt of a music collab i may complete with her. the plan is house/orchestral/piano with vocals by me. more info on that later.
    --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
    that boy is bitter
    -------------------
    i saw them happy together.
    it was such a sweet set of events.
    but no good tends to last forever.
    the bittersweet overcomes the goodness.
    she loved him with everything she had.
    he only cared for his benefit.
    she wanted more of his heart and soul.
    he could never stay true enough.
    [chorus]
    if all we are is bittersweet,
    than good times might as well never be.
    for all the goodness in her heart,
    he never saw the beauty in this work of art.
    and all i can say,
    all is lost.
    and to no god i pray,
    happiness to her weary soul.
    [bridge]
    they can never be happy together,
    if that boy never never learns to love.
    but you cannot teach love to the cold heart,
    if the heart is frozen black.
    the boy is stuck in a false security.
    never knowing the joys of love.
    the girl who loves him only wants him to be happy.
    but how can she help him if he wont help himself?
    [chorus]
    if all we are is bittersweet,
    than good times might as well never be.
    for all the goodness in her heart,
    he never saw the beauty in this work of art.
    and all i can say,
    all is lost.
    and to no god i pray,
    happiness to her weary soul.
    [solo]
    he will never learn.
    she will try to teach him.
    she tries and fails,
    to show him reason.
    he lies and hides,
    what he feels inside.
    because he knows she's right.
    it is meant to be...
    [chorus]
    if all we are is bittersweet,
    than good times might as well never be.
    for all the goodness in her heart,
    he never saw the beauty in this work of art.
    and all i can say,
    all is lost.
    and to no god i pray,
    happiness to her weary soul.
    [repeat song]
    [end with solo on second time]

  19. shyshy
    love on the run
    -----------------
    im out of time.
    im on the run.
    i must admit,
    i had my fun.
    summer's too late.
    winter is gone.
    i can relate,
    cuz im gonna fall.
    yeah it's my fault.
    im gonna fall.
    it's all my fault.
    [chorus]
    we fall down.
    we get back ontop.
    we talk down,
    on things we dont know.
    im out of time.
    im gonna fall.
    im out of time.
    im gonna,
    fall...
    [bridge]
    we ran around.
    we had our fun.
    woke up in bed,
    im not ashamed.
    we broke the law.
    we're on the run.
    that's how ya fall,
    into my arms.
    yeah it's all my fault.
    we're gonna fall.
    never apart.
    never apart.
    never apart.
    never away.
    [chorus]
    we fall down.
    we get back ontop.
    we talk down,
    on things we dont know.
    im out of time.
    im gonna fall.
    im out of time.
    im gonna,
    fall...
    [bridge]
    never apart.
    never apart.
    we'll find a way.
    we found a gun.
    we're on the run.
    is'nt it fun?
    they say the run,
    comes before the fall.
    im gonna fall down.
    we're gonna fall now.
    never apart.
    [solo]
    im happy to,
    say it was fun.
    you're quite the card.
    you're the only one,
    i would drag down,
    with me to hell.
    hope ya enjoy,
    the fall.
    enjoy the fall,
    into my arms.
    it's all my fault.
    the fall.
    the fall.
    [chorus]
    we fall down.
    we get back ontop.
    we talk down,
    on things we dont know.
    im out of time.
    im gonna fall.
    im out of time.
    im gonna,
    fall...
    [solo]
    we're gonna fall.
    [chorus]
    we fall down.
    we get back ontop.
    we talk down,
    on things we dont know.
    im out of time.
    im gonna fall.
    im out of time.
    im gonna,
    fall down...
    [bridge]
    you are a lot,
    alot of fun.
    my bestest friend.
    my only love.
    we're on the run,
    but try n have fun.
    im gonna fall,
    fall with a heavy,
    heart into hell.
    hold on close to me,
    never let go.
    im so sorry.
    it's all my fault.
    please dont blame me,
    atleast it was fun.
    we woke in bed,
    we were'nt ashamed.
    walk on the beach.
    look at the stars.
    heaven and hell,
    they both can wait.
    my love is here,
    were gonna fall.
    [bridge]
    we're gonna fall down on our faces.
    crawl on our knees.
    see majestic places,
    all for free.
    we may be on the run,
    be we do it style.
    [chorus]
    we fall down.
    we get back ontop.
    we talk down,
    on things we dont know.
    im out of time.
    im gonna fall.
    im out of time.
    im gonna,
    fall...
    [end]

  20. shyshy
    this song was highly inspired by fallout equestria.
    --------------------------------------------------------------
    drop the bomb
    -------------
    when they dropped the bomb,
    there was nothing left.
    nothing's just as wrong,
    as this kind of theft.
    steal away the souls,
    of future generations.
    i know how this will end,
    and i have to fix it!
    [chorus]
    looking forward to,
    the day it comes...
    a future that wont,
    be made of dust....
    we've come too far,
    to live this way!
    i swore my life,
    to better days!
    [bridge]
    mouth to mouth it goes,
    secrets are never safe.
    the bomb that wiped us all away,
    why only 1 of thousands.
    how do they expect,
    a world to change?
    if they wont even change themselves,
    surely it will happen again!
    [chorus]
    looking forward to,
    the day it comes...
    a future that wont,
    be made of dust....
    we've come too far,
    to live this way!
    i swore my life,
    to better days!
    [solo]
    and we sit,
    and we pray!
    it's with syringes,
    these kids play!
    it's more than my heart,
    can take!
    [solo]
    run away,
    run to the dark,
    never look,
    in my,
    direction...
    overdose,
    to cure my,
    ailments.
    another,
    falls,
    dead...
    the fallout brings,
    another war to fight...
    the cycle,
    never,
    dies..!
    [chorus]
    looking forward to,
    the day it comes...
    a future that wont,
    be made of rust....
    we've come so far,
    we live by flame!
    i swore my life,
    but my life changed!
    [heavy drop]
    but in,
    the cycle,
    we only want more!
    we need more!
    we take,
    more...
    [slow acoustic solo]
    to,
    another era...
    of darkness,
    when there should be light...
    [fade]

  21. shyshy
    innocent changes
    ----------------
    ya know i havent got a clue,
    but i see the change in you.
    theres only so much i can take.
    ya know your makin my heart ache,
    fears and tendancies,
    habits that wont ever wash away.
    they got the best of me.
    if i wake up i wanna change...
    dont forget, the man i have become.
    [chorus]
    when im insane,
    im left alone.
    i havent the heart,
    to fight alone.
    they left to me fight for myself.
    dont forget,
    i loved you.
    [bridge]
    pen glides across the page.
    now ya never gotta be afraid.
    ya know i never really say,
    just how much ive seen you change.
    if i was dying here,
    they would let me bleed out all alone.
    ya never answered me,
    when im gone,
    what did i leave..?
    dont forget, the things that i have done.
    [chorus]
    when im insane,
    im left alone.
    i havent the heart,
    to fight alone.
    they left me to fight for myself.
    dont forget,
    i loved you.
    [slower acoustics]
    i loved you, dear.
    if all i had,
    was a journal recording,
    every little lie.
    if all i had,
    was the endless book of,
    faces i have,
    broken down for no reason.
    passed down to god for judgement.
    i hoped id find a better way,
    but as it seems,
    im the one at fault.
    [music picks up]
    never, forget.
    i brought them to their knees.
    they lied, and made,
    a foolish man of me.
    we toss, and turn.
    but never fall asleep.
    if i, can change,
    it better change my past,
    and future...
    [solo]
    [chorus]
    when im insane,
    im left alone.
    i havent the heart,
    to fight alone.
    they left me to fight for myself.
    dont forget,
    i loved you, dear...
    (dont you, forget.)
    im gonna be okay.
    (they lied, to me.)
    i only wanna change.
    (dont try, and change)
    i love you best this way.
    (they took it all away)
    [solo that fades to end]

  22. shyshy

    [6/21/2012]Nobody

    By shyshy,

    nobody
    ------
    it's a strange thing,
    to me,
    how we betray.
    we tell them,
    what they are,
    nothing and nobody.
    [break down]
    we're born to loathe.
    we feel only hate.
    the rest is false prophecy.
    we see the world,
    shrouded with fear.
    im fearful and that's the end.
    [chorus]
    im simply a nobody.
    no thoughts of my very own.
    i do what a nobody does,
    sit alone and i cry for help.
    nobody
    nobody
    nobody
    [bridge]
    the torn and frayed,
    they gave to me.
    i wanted life to be a game.
    but why did,
    it fall away?
    ill fall and that's the end.
    [chorus]
    im simply a nobody.
    no thoughts of my very own.
    i do what a nobody does,
    sit alone and i cry for help.
    nobody
    nobody
    nobody
    [solo]
    [bridge]
    we took away,
    and teach our hate,
    to offspring young and ready to learn.
    but we take and teach,
    live like a leech.
    im a leech who takes and takes.
    [chorus]
    im simply a nobody.
    no thoughts of my very own.
    i do what a nobody does,
    sit alone and i cry for help.
    nobody
    nobody
    nobody
    [bridge]
    we cant be this forever.
    some day we must change.
    life is worth the challenges.
    our anger cannot suffice.
    we live to be the nobodies.
    we teach children our sins.
    cope and live tomorrow,
    only to die alone,
    and wrong...
    [solo]
    we cant be this forever.
    some day we must change.
    life is worth the constant effort.
    our anger cannot remain.
    we live to be the cowards.
    we teach children to hate.
    our laws restrict their freedom,
    only to remove humanity.
    [chorus]
    im simply a nobody.
    no thoughts of my very own.
    i do what a nobody does,
    sit alone and i cry for help.
    i run the system and i teach.
    i am leading a nation down.
    i care not for the people hurt.
    corruption resides in my soul.
    leading them,
    to their deaths,
    at my hands.
    [silence]
    it's a strange thing,
    to me,
    how we betray.
    we tell them,
    what they are,
    nothing and nobody.

  23. shyshy
    golden age
    ----------
    i miss the golden age,
    when all the streets were filled with playin kids.
    when every neighbor would shake hands,
    and music wasnt for the fame.
    everyday is just the same,
    all the days they go to waste.
    it's damn new age i've grown to hate.
    [bridge]
    the times will never be the same.
    far too much has changed and gone to waste.
    the laughin kids grew up too fast,
    grew in the streets and left home in dust.
    now the city streets are plagued with rust.
    [chorus]
    when the days are all the same and life is spent a wastin',
    just remember the times when the streets were paved with gold.
    when the days will never last, now ya never wanna laugh,
    take a chance, step ouside, make a friend, go for a ride.
    [bridge]
    goodbye old times it's such a shame.
    i hardly knew your worth, you've gone to waste.
    music's dead and all the same.
    another song out everyday,
    but they sound like **** without the taste.
    [chorus]
    when the days are all the same and life is spent a wastin',
    just remember the times whent the streets were paved with gold.
    when the days will never last, now ya never wanna laugh,
    take a chance, step ouside, make a friend, go for a ride.
    [solo]
    we all know we miss the past,
    but ya know ya cant go back.
    that's the price that you pay,
    when your days go to waste.
    when we've lost all track,
    of the days that we want back,
    tell the future it can wait,
    and that it can kiss your ass.
    [chorus]
    when the days are all the same and life is spent a wastin',
    just remember the times whent the streets were paved with gold.
    when the days will never last, now ya never wanna laugh,
    take a chance, step ouside, make a friend, go for a ride.
    [bridge]
    [end]

  24. shyshy
    little boy black
    ----------------
    what do you see,
    inside their weary,
    faces?
    a prison inside them,
    their minds are,
    empty.
    floating through,
    subconious,
    places.
    [chorus]
    when i was just a little boy,
    they said i could be anything.
    i became nothing,
    im nothing to this day.
    they said i would always,
    have god lookin down on me.
    ready to hold my hand.
    they couldnt be more wrong.
    why did they lie?
    what did they mean?!
    the faces are empty.
    their minds are wiped clean.
    because of every little lie,
    i grew dark and cold inside.
    and all i believed,
    was that god hated me.
    i couldnt be more right...
    [bridge]
    what have i become?
    i lost all,
    the traces.
    all the pieces,
    of my mind,
    are scattered.
    across the ages,
    and love,
    is pointless.
    [chorus]
    when i was just a little boy,
    they said i could be anything.
    i became nothing,
    im nothing to this day.
    they said i would always,
    have god lookin down on me.
    ready to hold my hand.
    they couldnt be more wrong.
    why did they lie?
    what did they mean?!
    the faces are empty.
    their minds are wiped clean.
    because of every little lie,
    i grew dark and cold inside.
    and all i believed,
    was that god hated me.
    i couldnt be more right...
    [solo]
    god is laughing,
    his ass of,
    at me.
    torment and time,
    are not,
    my friends.
    lucidity and clarity,
    are all i,
    ask for.
    the pieces of my mind,
    are craving,
    substance.
    do they honestly expect,
    a man,
    out of me?
    how can they expect,
    the love,
    to help me?
    know not and want now,
    are virtues,
    and prophecy.
    [chorus]
    when i was just a little boy,
    they said i could be anything.
    i became nothing,
    im nothing to this day.
    they said i would always,
    have god lookin down on me.
    ready to hold my hand.
    they couldnt be more wrong.
    why did they lie?
    what did they mean?!
    the faces are empty.
    their minds are wiped clean.
    because of every little lie,
    i grew dark and cold inside.
    and all i believed,
    was that god hated me.
    i couldnt be more right...
    [fade with bridge]

  25. shyshy

    [6/16/2012]Visions

    By shyshy,

    visions
    -------
    sleeping children all oblivious of,
    the world around them, coming to an end.
    visions of flaming skies, and falling bodies.
    blood and flesh, filling all their memories.
    torn to insanity and denied freedom,
    for all their days, spending life like a ghost.
    the fallen voices they whisper to me.
    tell me nothing, but tell me more than enough.
    [chorus]
    and if i could tell you what im seeing,
    i know you wont believe.
    if i told you i was sorry,
    im sure my life would change.
    but until i've told my story,
    ill just sit inside these...
    visions,
    of the end.
    [bridge]
    the children wake up and act like nothing,
    become nothing, future of nothing.
    visions eating at the back of their eyes,
    no more blue skies, only darkness.
    lost inside their very own creation,
    dreams of the end, thinking of a way out.
    so sorry, but i left them on their own,
    all alone, ready to give in.
    [chorus]
    and if i could tell you what im seeing,
    i know you wont believe.
    if i told you i was sorry,
    i know my life would change.
    but until i've said im sorry,
    ill just sit inside these...
    visions,
    of the end.
    they beckon,
    to me.
    [solo]
    a million soldiers marching to the frontline,
    for the children, for their families.
    wasted talent, and wasted years.
    trained to slaughter, and trained to end lives.
    what they dont know is they show the children,
    the very visions, that keep them up at night.
    losing sight of the monsters they are,
    the children monsters, dream and dream and dream.
    looking forward to the day of freedom.
    the demons inside them, conquer their innocent souls.
    blood and murder becomes motivation,
    to end the lives of, children just like them.
    [chorus]
    and if i could tell you what im seeing,
    i know you wont believe.
    if i told you i was sorry,
    im sure my life would change.
    but until i've told my story,
    ill just sit inside my mind.
    worried for my future,
    what have i become.
    i taugh them how to murder,
    taught them how to steal.
    surely i am dreaming,
    this cant possibly...
    be real,
    visions.
    [solo]
    but if i could fix my mistake,
    i would not hesitate.
    im sorry for the things i create,
    but i'd hate for it to be destroyed.
    [bridge]
    every child has a different purpose,
    some are monsters, but all are blessings.
    all around us the world is changing.
    taking control, making visions reality.
    so sorry child, but today i leave you.
    find your purpose, kill the monarch.
    [fade with chorus]

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