Otsdarva

Thank you!  I... I'm at a, not a loss for words, but a direction to take them.  The time I had spent with her, even with her sister always there were amazing.  I would not be the man I am now if she didn't step into my life.  It's... always complicated, but that's what makes relationships so rewarding!  Being able to see the fruits of your labor pay off, to find you've met someone you seek to entrust you deepest secrets too!  I dare say there's never a time when you're more vulnerable to be hurt than when you fall in love.  What happens between her and I now... I don't know, she's happy where she's at right now and I can only turn my focus to my own happiness.

I'm happy to have inspired you!  It's been so long since I've just spent such a great deal of time just writing.  Just throwing out the words as they came to mind and keeping from running on too much.

I know this is a late reply, but I thought I'd chime in anyway.  I hope things have gotten better for you, have they?  The advice of the others in the comments are to be listened too.  You're only as strong as you want to be!  Strong people cry too, they cry a lot actually.  Because they don't run from it, they overcome it.  They become stronger and face the next challenge with a taunting grin and a middle finger raised high!  You will find true friends in time, those who aren't just hanging around or avoiding you because of some silly high school status.  I know at that point in life those things mean the world to many people, but life doesn't just stop after high school.  It continues and so too must your spirit, must your perseverance.

I can understand relationship issues, I'm terribly sorry that happened to you.  It maybe hypocritical of me to say and the words will sound hollow, even painful right now... but there will be more.  There will be another who finds you pretty and wishes to treat you the way you deserve to be treated.