but it's not an alt if I use it instead of this one, then it becomes my main
A part of me has died this day, I can feel it crumbling, withering my soul. It aches as though this was not meant to be, and yet it has come to pass. I shall try to move forward, yet I fear this void within shall anchor me, tethered to this moment as a sick reminder that you are never truly safe, even among friends. Joy seems dull now, as though even the merriment in the world has taken a toll in this worst of times, but I know that it is only my darkness which clouds these things I see. Darkness that may never pass.