I think your rage is just a manifestation of your fear. I know what you feel, I'm completely alone too, crying about it more often than it would be good for me. I can only give you one advice:

Ponies will not always cheer you up. Depending on what got you down they might make it worse. If you notice they do, think about something else, but that's not the only thing that helps. You can always remember the good sides of ponies and it will cheer you up.

Unlike you I don't get mad at being alone, I'm just sad - I can't tell you what's more horrible though.

A man i no how u feel i went through the same thing i had to go through it alone with no help bt i did get through it now im nt gna sugar coat it getting through something lik this can be very hard it will hurt it will make u cry n u may lose a part of yourself on the way bt u cant give up jst remember 2 always be strong now i no nt every 1 cn be bt dats wat me n every 1 else is here 4 when u cnt be strong well b strong 4 u i had to go through this alone and it was hard so ill b dammed if ima sit back and watch someone else hav to go through it by themselves again jst remember me n every 1 else if here 4 u dnt hold bak if need 2 talk were here bro ima pray 4 u so jst remember 2 do your best.

Thanks guys. I truly appreciate you guys trying to make me feel better. I will be at ease knowing I can count on you guys when I have my "rock bottom" moments. It means a lot to know you all care

Don't count on me, when I am down, I am much further down than you and I will drag you with me. What you need is a happy personality who cheers you up.

Of course anytime ill add u so let me no if theirs anything i can do 2 help when ur feeling down or if u jst need suport i always try to show love 4 every one and in this fandom i love every 1 lik family n ill always try my best 2 help family