So. This happened.

[LibertinaTheDreamer]

Yeah, so, I just spent 11 months inna MLP community that went there.

I did not start that way, of course. All fun and ponies, silly talk and new friends.

Somewhere along the line I get the feeling everything is not right here.

Nothing specific or detailed. Just a feeling.

So, I poke around. Nothing specific comes to light, just a thing, poking at the back of my head.

Like something just at the edge of your vision. (Or when I need to clean my glasses.)

Now, mind you, everything was still fun enough to keep posting, I get replied, ponies like me.

Foruming, lurking.

I keep being active, likeable.

Making new posters feel comfortable, and such. Because I actually LIKED the damn ponies there.

I get made Moderator.

I actually get to see what those Admins were doing there all that time.

I'm not all that impressed, but hey, relatively new forum, right?

Stuff still taking form. So I give it time.

And poke for stuff to do and suggest.

Turns out it was already suggested. Pretty much all of it.

By the earlier Moderator.

So it was all ignored. "Go figure.", I go and still give the benefit of the doubt.

Give it a poke, for the others, if not for me. That was my reasoning.

Things go into kind of a standstill, nothing really gets done, but things work regardless.

So, kay, don't fix what is not broken, right?

Coasting along, posting, poking the forumites to abide by the rules, defuse conflicts of personality, ban the occasional troll, you knows, Moderating.

'Puter derps out and I'm out of the picture for a week or two.

I come back.

And;

Users being banned on account of personal opinions, and those only, blacklisting, veiled threats to users in PM's by the, PM's used as a basis of making drama for the sake of it.

Now, all of this?

Done by the Admins.

All of it.

Just to single out one or two people out of all the users because of some misguided personal vendetta.

I resign from my moderator position and take a long hard discussion with myself.

Isolate the reasons, find the cause, fix this.

It's my goddamn forum and I care about my friends.

I will fix this.

Make those responsible, responsible.

Turns out, all of the evidence is removed.

Ask anyone, it did not happen, no text anywhere, no pictures, no links, and most of the "co-ordination" is done off site or via Steam chat...

So, I got nothing to go on.

I do maybe one of the dumbest things in my life and start to gather personal accounts.

Everypony has a their own view on the matter, of course, it's dotted by blackpainting, deliberate false information and all the good stuff you'd assume to find.

I get there, eventually.

Piece out the "Truth" from scraps of information, pieces of details and collaborating information.

What happened, why and how.

The whole matter is an incredible clusterfudge that had too many helping hands and doo-gooders involved and it spans the entirety of the community's existence.

Main points?

Original ideas for pretty much everything to improve the forum was done by one pony. And one pony only.

That pony was blatantly ignored, brushed aside and not given any kind of credit for his work and effort by the Admins.

Furthermore, he was blacklisted and ostracised from the community as much as possible by the same Dramatis Personae.

The concept of the community was rotten from the core and based on stolen, infringed information.

Good starting point to a "Love and Tolerance" community, don't you agree?

Everything was taken to a way too personal level when it came to the decision making for the actual forum and the ponies involved.

Too much was left not done and everything took ages to get done.

Ages. Trust me, simple bug fix on some minute detail that was noticed six months ago is still not done.

Next time you are Googling MLP you might ran into it.

Then you can say to yourself;

So, Admin that is never there, Admin that is prone to random outbursts of hate and is a known manipulator of emotions and possibly suffers from a mental condition and a Admin that Involves herself in every little drama that comes her way just because.

Oh, and a AWOL coolguy Moderator.

Nice, small, harmless community with tendency for sudden psychotic drama filled outbursts.

Sounds familiar.

Somehow.

Still, after all is done and said, I cannot blame anyone.

They were and continue to be my friends, every single one of them.

They just let their emotions to get in the way of using a forum.

They made the forum their whole existence and assumed it gave them some bragging right or a moral highground to others.

Internet leaking.

The whole matter is still raging on and will continue to do so until the end of time.

There will be no respite to this "Shadow War" waged in Steam Chat rooms and PM's while they still assume to have something to be gained.

Pride has taken over.

I assume no moral high ground in this. I made errors too.

I was part of the community.

They are in err, and they full well know they are.

They are also know full well the errors they made.

But I forgive them.

It is their choice wheter to move on or not.

I have, and can only hope they will do so too.

But, I think that it will be too high of an demand, as they are humans and see they are right and everything the did was justified.

I'm done with that place, not for the ponies there, but for the drama they have made up for themselves.

And for the drama I got myself involved in.

No more.

It pains me to leave it unsolved and those there still continuing to escalate the situation.

But there is no magical switch to make it all better. And I would be forced to pick some sort of side in all this.

To make a stand.

To isolate some of my former friends just by saying "Enough is enough."

Sometimes Frindship won't solve a damn thing if your frinds make up for themselves immaterial fortresses of "Justified Cause" and "I am Right" and choose sides to wage war from.

To make it all worse, it is covered behind the curtains of "Love and Tolerance".

"I do this because I care."

There are no worse words to fling insults behind from.

No visible walls and bulwarks, just "them" and "us", and everyone has a different vision on whom those might be.

Only a outside influence will make them notice they are wrong.

But they are a community. Outside influence is shied away from.

One part of me is hoping they will stumble on this and understand and let it all go.

Other understands that this would only spawn more drama.

This would be used as a Banner or an Idol to stand behind, something to point at and say "We are right because of this."

I needed to get this out of my system, that was all.

And Forums of all sizes and shapes are my outlet.

If there was a lesson to be lerned here, it would be that humans continue to be humans.

No matter the pretence or overlapping currents, we still make up our own little sandforts and call them ours.

Furiously defending them from others even looking at them wrongly.

This I should have kept on my mind, tearing them down while there still was the chance.

Too bad those are our personalities too, those little sandforts.

Know yourself and your faults.

Hope others will see theirs.

Good thing I'm insane, I'd have snapped otherwise from all that.

-Libertina (Cthulhu-Pony) Grimm.

I ask of you, if you do know of this matter, do not name the participants or the community, it is not their fault.

Only of their humanity. And in that, we are all guilty.

[Ironfungus]

Not to mention they banned Princess Celestia. I'm pretty sure they're all going to hell for that and are shunned as a MLP community.

[Vendix]

...what?

...I just...what?

[LibertinaTheDreamer]

A thing happened.

I moved on.

Nothing to be concerned over.

[QuickLime]

If you made a big post over it I'm sure some ponies are confused..

[Guest HipsterRarity]

I... err... believe a thank you is in order for the lesson in your story? I'll admit I didn't understand some of it, but I think I received the overall message.

[Manestream]

Whatever shores you sail from, I hope you find warm welcome and a place to feel at home here. We certainly aren't perfect, but we will try our best to make this place one worth visiting.

Welcome, and good to meet you :3

[Kirby Krackle]

I'm confused. But I'm always confused. I'm with ya, bro. Even if I don't know why.

[LibertinaTheDreamer]

If you made a big post over it I'm sure some ponies are confused..

Vague on purpose.

Why name some one responsible if they just made an human error?

...

Granted, I'd want to rage over it but that is not constructive.

I... err... believe a thank you is in order for the lesson in your story? I'll admit I didn't understand some of it, but I think I received the overall message.

Mostly made just to get it off my chest.

If you found any actual wisdom on it, I am more than happy to take credit for it tho.

Whatever shores you sail from, I hope you find warm welcome and a place to feel at home here. We certainly aren't perfect, but we will try our best to make this place one worth visiting.

Welcome, and good to meet you :3

Always count for human error in thy actions and know thine influence Mr. God.

That's all I need.

Thank you for your welcome. I'll try not to blow anything up. >:3

I'm confused. But I'm always confused. I'm with ya, bro. Even if I don't know why.

Me too confused.

*Pegisisterhoof*