Lux

Dear Journal, It happened again. I thought I was rid of it, but it happened again. That same nightmare I had! You know, it's funny how you can get what you wanted and lead the life that you wanted but still have the past haunt you. This is what happened. The nightmare took me back to that day when I was stripped of my talent and magic, watching helplessly as Twilight Sparkle battled Tirek. I couldn't move, couldn't help, only watch as her home, the source of knowledge and the place I first met her, was destroyed in the blink of an eye. Then suddenly, a blast from Tirek's power in an attempt to destroy the Alicorn hit my bookstore and house. There was a flash and then the world around me collapsed on top of me. Then I was in the darkness, calling out for help, but receiving none. I know that I was saved from the wreckage that was my home, but... what if I wasn't discovered? What if I was left to suffer alone? I don't think the dream was about the events themselves as I have reconciled them in my mind. This is about my darkest fear, being completely and utterly alone where no friends of happy faces would help me. It's something I think about many times, being alone, and while it's nice to have time to myself to read or just think about the day I fear that I'd be thrown into a helpless and hopeless position where nopony would save me, not even myself. Will I keep having these nightmares tied to my fear, or will I be able to conqueror it? Can something so deep be defeated? Your Faithful Librarian, Lore Weaver

Dear Journal, Something interesting happened with Twilight Sparkle that made me think. She spoke of her events of reconnecting with a friend in Canterlot named Moon Dancer, one who she regretted dismissing as a friend years ago. What struck a chord for me was how alike Moon Dancer is to Twilight and as a result to me. We all share our love for knowledge, but beyond that Twilight and Moon Dancer seem opposites to each other. One chose the path of friendship while the other chose until recently to remain in isolation. So that begs the question, am I more like Twilight, embracing friendship or Moon Dancer? Nothing against the later but gosh I hope that I'm not seen as some recluse who only can be seen in a library. Maybe I like Moon Dancer need to relearn the value of friendship. Friendship isn't something I can study though but must be experienced, so maybe to avoid being complacent with just my studies I will try to make more friends in town. Shouldn't be hard, right? Your Faithful Librarian (and Seeker of Friends), Lore Weaver